Dear Christa—
I guess sometimes people can
just talk too much. I suppose sometimes we just need to know when to stop.
The second year I taught
(nearly 30 years ago), I had vocal nodes. What was crazy about it was that I was
teaching a small kindergarten class of 6 exceptionally well behaved and
precious little kids. But, the sweet little class was in a rather large room of
the church, and the speech therapist decided I was speaking to the room and not
the class. (And the fact that I had the “Oh, Holy Night” solo in the Christmas
cantata, which was way too high for me surely exacerbated the situation.) She
also uncovered an anger issue, but we’ll just let that one go for now.
Now the whole world had one language and a common speech.
As men moved eastward, they found a plain in Shinar and settled there…Then they
said, “Come, let us build ourselves a city with a tower that reaches to the
heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves and not be scattered over the
face of the whole earth.” Gen. 7
Seeing the therapist was
humiliating for me. Having minored in voice, I felt indignant this had
happened. I wanted to do everything that I wanted to do.
Yet, the day before the
first performance of the cantata, I awoke totally silent. I had no voice at
all.
The result, though, was
longer lasting than sessions with a speech therapist I didn’t care for, who in reality
was probably quite nice: voice rest for weeks, except during the afternoons
that I taught—no singing for six months and a voice that has always been weak
all these many long years. So I learned to be quiet. And I learned that I am
rather prideful.
So, the descendants of those
who were saved in the ark became prideful. They intended to build their city
and a tower to the sky. They chose themselves. They wanted to do everything
they wanted to do, whether it was good or not.
I no longer teach a handful
of little children, and a lingering cough has brought back old sensations in
the throat that I don’t want to ignore. School was over last week, and now I
really can choose to be quiet. I hope that this will be a summer I choose to
listen and not babble.
Sometimes we talk too much,
and sometimes we just need to stop.